It's been sometime since I have been here, I would wish say been so busy but that would be a lie, I guess there was bila Vibe! :=), Anyway Interesting things have been going on around here, Finally I get to go on my much anticipated Leave starting next week, So I guess there will be no excuse for not blogging! :=).
And I just got an invitation to one my exes Weddings! & I have no excuse for not attending. You see we are pretty good friends, I somehow maintain that kind of relationship with all my ex'es apart from that *sad bastard* who slept with my friend (Now that was & is still unforgivable)
Anyway back to this ex, I used to see him way back while in colle, but fell out but for good reasons..LOL..What I mean is that, it was no nasty break-up, anyway we have been good friends since then, n have severally hanged out with his galfriend turned *Fiance*..I can believe I just called her that! Not that am jealous no, there's no reason to be, Just that am still in shock, I can believe he's doing it.
I was in shock when he first called to drop the news, Apparently he saw it fit that I hear it from him first(Not that it matters anyway)..My question is When did he start getting that serious? Even though I have seen the card I still can believe he's doing it!
The wedding is in August and am attending, no excuse not to, Now what I need is a hot date by my side I don't wanna drag my galfriends coz I don't want them looking at me with teary eyes as they exchange vows, pitying me or worse still wishing it was me there..LOL
There's something more painful than learning from experience, and that's not learning from it....
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Eat it Up! Before it MeltS!!!!...
I am capable, I am worthwhile, I am beautiful. I am lovable, I shall accept both my strengths & my weaknesses for they are me. I shall never again believe the "lie"that if I make a mistake,I am a mistake..My mistakes are the learning tools, that I shall encounter on my life journey.
When I learn from my mistakes,I give them meaning.When I give my mistakes meaning, I can begin to forgive myself, I can begin to heal.
I shall not use my mistakes as excuses to give up on me.....My mistakes are not me.
I shall seek the wisdom to nurture., my heart, mind, body, & soul so that I may feel more centered: Providing an energy reserve that allows me to climb the mountains in my own life, Providing an energy reserve that allows me to love & support others who are climbing a different mountain...
Providing an energy reserve that allows time for friends, play and the celebration of life.
I shall allow myself to feel capable so that I may seek excellence. I shall allow myself to feel sadness so that joy may return.
I shall allow myself to feel joy so that I may be revitalized.
I shall allow myself to feel afraid so that I may find courage.
I shall allow myself to feel alone so that I may know me.
I shall allow myself to feel beautiful so that I may feel free.
I shall allow myself to feel lovable so that the loving may seek me.
I shall allow myself to feel pain so that I may heal.
I shall allow myself to feel worthy so that I may fulfill my purpose.
When I am centered, I see the perfection in the world, Myself and others. When I find the world to be imperfect,I will take responsibility for painting it that way.
I will look into the heart of a rose, or the eyes of a newborn baby & again know perfection. I take responsibility for creating my own life story through the choices I have made; to blame others is to give away my personal power.
Who will I allow to write the next chapter of my life? I shall seek the courage to believe in a God or Higher Power who will laugh with me in the sunlight or cry with me in the darkness.
I shall make a small difference on this planet through the work I do.When I leave I will have done my share.
I shall live, love, laugh,and learn on my journey.
Courtesy of a Forward.....
Saturday, June 02, 2007
A few Truths..........
Now that am back on this bilaz Train was wondering if the rules have changed, I have been away for almost 2 years n am still tryin adjust, but I will definately..
Damn! Si I get cold feet on first meetings actually been once on a blind date, had to teremsha 2 Smirnoffs before meetin him n it was fun watchin him all nervous n anxious,I just sat there staring at him amused..LOL! That was da last time he saw me..
By da way, have actually phyisically met afew of u in precise 4 jamaas one chile..n it's been interesting, anyway let me let u in kiasi..
Blogger 1..This one also happens to be my best Friend,Our friendship has been through alot n she has been through hell too but we all have our flaws n what matters to me most is I believe her n she trusts me..
Blogger 2..We have been chattin for a while but I was'nt so eager on meetin him, am never good at first meetings, anyway am Club Sound with pals n I decide why not so sms'es Flow n in 30 mins he's @ the entrace, Good time-Keeper am lovin it! It's shockin, he's totally diff from what I had in mind, anyway we have fun, he falls for my gal n I think she has a thing for him too.They hit it off sawa.Anyway we live in strange world, n strange things happen bt he's still one my best..& anythin 4 him......
Blogger 3..He was my regular, Was his greatest fan, We met thru a mutual friend,had no idea it was him until after 2nd meetin, n it was awkward alittle bit..n I could tell he was so nervous..bt after that he gave my blog ablack out,I have never & may never understand why! Nway am still his greatest fan n will always be..
Blogger 4...Was datin my gal, n had promised not to reveal myself bt after afew pints I gave myself a way..LOL! Now that's one hell of a funny guy so funny than his blog..He kept me laughin all through! N he is cool.A real gentleman..by tha way(Am sorry 4 being stubborn n difficult) I sometimes get there when am tipsy..(Shame on me!)
Blogger 5....This one met him accidentally can actually say that, Rezorous past mid-nite, wasted, get introduced am like "Klara" Laughs huskily (I must add) & says am ----.Am like "the blogger?" " Yes!" am gettin sober now, he's like "I Like ur blog", Shocked now..How did he know me?? Apparently had seen my pix somewhere n had figured out! LOL! Now that one was an intriguing, fast-talkin, handsome jamaa(Those guys that make u wish u were single n free to mingle :P)
By the way it was fun meetin u all n will definately be meetin more of u!
Anyway this post was made to seek advice; Is it possible to Love someone u have never physically met? Lately been feelin closer to this guy n yet we havent met..
Damn! Si I get cold feet on first meetings actually been once on a blind date, had to teremsha 2 Smirnoffs before meetin him n it was fun watchin him all nervous n anxious,I just sat there staring at him amused..LOL! That was da last time he saw me..
By da way, have actually phyisically met afew of u in precise 4 jamaas one chile..n it's been interesting, anyway let me let u in kiasi..
Blogger 1..This one also happens to be my best Friend,Our friendship has been through alot n she has been through hell too but we all have our flaws n what matters to me most is I believe her n she trusts me..
Blogger 2..We have been chattin for a while but I was'nt so eager on meetin him, am never good at first meetings, anyway am Club Sound with pals n I decide why not so sms'es Flow n in 30 mins he's @ the entrace, Good time-Keeper am lovin it! It's shockin, he's totally diff from what I had in mind, anyway we have fun, he falls for my gal n I think she has a thing for him too.They hit it off sawa.Anyway we live in strange world, n strange things happen bt he's still one my best..& anythin 4 him......
Blogger 3..He was my regular, Was his greatest fan, We met thru a mutual friend,had no idea it was him until after 2nd meetin, n it was awkward alittle bit..n I could tell he was so nervous..bt after that he gave my blog ablack out,I have never & may never understand why! Nway am still his greatest fan n will always be..
Blogger 4...Was datin my gal, n had promised not to reveal myself bt after afew pints I gave myself a way..LOL! Now that's one hell of a funny guy so funny than his blog..He kept me laughin all through! N he is cool.A real gentleman..by tha way(Am sorry 4 being stubborn n difficult) I sometimes get there when am tipsy..(Shame on me!)
Blogger 5....This one met him accidentally can actually say that, Rezorous past mid-nite, wasted, get introduced am like "Klara" Laughs huskily (I must add) & says am ----.Am like "the blogger?" " Yes!" am gettin sober now, he's like "I Like ur blog", Shocked now..How did he know me?? Apparently had seen my pix somewhere n had figured out! LOL! Now that one was an intriguing, fast-talkin, handsome jamaa(Those guys that make u wish u were single n free to mingle :P)
By the way it was fun meetin u all n will definately be meetin more of u!
Anyway this post was made to seek advice; Is it possible to Love someone u have never physically met? Lately been feelin closer to this guy n yet we havent met..